Wednesday, December 8, 2010

good job

As you all know, I have been job-hunting a few weeks ago. Because of my experience, I had the opportunity to choose which work I like and not just apply and pray to be accepted to any company. Here are some of my wishes:

Salary - secret! haha!
Benefits - healthcard, at least 10 VLs and 10 SLs (convertible to cash)
Encourages work-life balance
Near our house
Flexible schedule or at least not graveyard shift
Follows Philippine holidays (sana)
Supports trainings
Work value (ayoko ng maliit lang ang contribution ng trabaho ko sa company)
Work environment where I can learn
No cost cutting on supplies (tissue, water, notebook, ballpen, pencil)
Own pedestal
Clean CRs (sana may bidet)
ANG PINAKA-IMPORTANTE - somewhere na I think makakapag-ipon na ako finally. hehe!

Fortunately, God has blessed me with this new job. I'm really thankful kase pati yung bidet napagbigyan at marami pang bonus! I get to work with the smartest people and hopefully soon, I can adopt how their mind works. The company also thinks that their best asset is their people so you can imagine how much I am being taken care of... no shortages on tissue or notebook or laptop or trainings. And as early as my 3rd day, we are already talking about a succession plan. Flexi sched, VLs and holidays allows me to spend more time with people that are important to me. At ang pinaka-importante sa lahat, makakapag-ipon na ako! My main office is just a P7 jeepney ride away and I get to bring pack lunch to save.

Right now, all I can see are the positive things. Maybe I'm still in the honeymoon stage but honestly, I have never valued any job just like how much I value this current work that I have. I hope everything works out great!    

Sunday, November 14, 2010

long overdue (drunken post)

So apparently, I have readers. haha! It's unbelievable but the facts have been laid down on me so.

I guess I have to be more consistent in posting stuff but recently, things have been quite complicated so I can't really broadcast what's happening to yours truly... I might have the same fate as Mark Zuckerberg. Not referring to the billions of dollars out of a new invention but the several law suit because "I was drunk and angry and stupid...and blogging" haha!

So now, as forecasted, the trending topic is about Manny Pacquiao winning his 8th boxing world title. It's a happy thing and all but I'm not really interested in it. In fact, the reason I'm blogging is to keep myself from the Manny Pacquiao craze. I just hate hearing the commentators. They talk as if they know everything. Such show-offs! I can't tolerate it.

One thing more, I think it's sad that most of us Filipinos needs to wait for something like this to be proud of being Pinoys. Why do we need to wait for Charisse Pempengco to penetrate in to Hollywood, for Manny Pacquiao to be hailed as the "Greatest Boxer" or for any Filipino to do well in their craft in the international arena? Can't we be proud of our heritage sans the achievements of our fellow Pinoys? But yeah, it's still good that we are proud of being Filipinos during times like this. 

You know what I love during the Pacquiao fights aside from the zero crime rate? There's not too many people in the malls!!! Meaning, I can do my shopping rounds without the hassles of long queues to the cashier or the fitting room and other hassles brought about by mall-congestion. Haha! Happy shopping ladies!!! Let's take advantage of this time when the guys are hooked to the TiVo. Finally, you have freedom to shop without your boyfriend or husband asking about your purchases. Haha!

Tip: You can have the same shopping-freedom during the NBA season which is now!!! So just play cool about these things. Boys will not grow out their fascination to Dota, to basketball and all the guy stuff but we can be creative on how to deal with those. haha!

No, I'm not drunk but this post seems like it's written by a drunk person... it's all over the place. But hey, it's a blog so. haha! :)

Monday, October 18, 2010

hard-hitting questions

I was at Boracay a few days back but this time, I was with my BFFs; not alone. I actually enjoyed my time there, eating my heart out without any guilt just because I'm the thinnest amongst us and because my bikinis and monakini were all falling off. (eewww!) We all went together for our friend's wedding but more than that, we had our much needed pep-talk to and for each other, especially me being always the troubled one. I mostly had my pep-talk from my single friend, Jan who I'm always with because the other two were spending some of their time with their respective boyfriends. I love talking to Jan because she always "gets" me even when I couldn't explain myself. She would always show another perspective of the whole scenario I am in and most of the time, it would lead me to a solution to my issues. And I love how she just bombard me with questions until I find my answer and not just lay out all her opinions about my issues.

Not a lot of people know about the relationships or might I say, pseudo-relationships I had the past few months. It's been a year since my ex-boyfriend broke up with me and I have made a huge effort to open up myself to other people for a possible happy-ending with them. There's this one guy who have became my almost-lover. We never really talked about the label of our relationship but we enjoyed spending time together. I also never really talked about him to anyone but only to my BFFs which are the girls I was with in Boracay. That guy and I have parted ways already but not in a good way. It's sad that we ended up that way but that's the way life goes.

Jan asked me, "Did you really had feelings for him?" I have already moved on from him and I am happier now with another guy (who calls me doll). It's kinda sad that people think I just used "him" to get over my broken heart and I dumped him as soon as my current love came in, but I didn't. I didn't use him. Did I had feelings for him? I guess I would say, I love how he made me feel. I love how he gives me time, how he goes over his tabs for me and how he's different in a good way when he's with me. I never felt a strong love for him but I did open myself to him. I gave him time and chance for us to have that connection. I have searched deep within me if I there is a possibility for us to be more than just friends. For some reason, just when I thought that we have a shot of being a couple, something in me just died and the possibility of us being a couple got lost too.

It was not his fault but neither was it mine. I didn't use him. I had feelings for him but it was not enough to commit to him. I have searched my heart for his spot and tried to nurture that but it failed. I have nothing to complain about him, he's all that and more but it's just not him for me. I guess my only fault was I never explained myself to him. He just found one day that I stopped going out with him. I'm not really good at "dumping" people. I never said no, I just disappeared. He deserves more than that. He deserves a last talk with me but I can't handle it now.But for what it's worth, I did have feelings for him.

Saturday, October 9, 2010

a prayer

Based on true to life story which happened minutes ago...

Him: Diyos ko po!
Tulungan nyo ko!
Mahal ko tong babaeng to
Pero ayaw nya maniwala!

Me: wrong sent po. ipadala mo yan sa langit. hehe!

Him: oo nga pala.
ayan, na-send na.

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

i'm a bird. i take flight.

WARNING: This is an emo post. Skip reading this if you can't tolerate emotional reads.


These are true events in my life that tells me that I'm a bird.

1. The bus I was riding zig-zagged along EDSA and finally crashed to a tree in Crame due to reckless driving. I was injured.  I had cuts and bruises all over and a few of my bones got sprained. Instead of staying in the accident scene and be interviewed by the policemen and receive due assistance from the bus Operator, I hailed a cab and went to work. I'm a bird. I take flight.

2. Once, a sweet-faced girl betrayed the "unspoken ally" between girls and evaded my relationship with my long-time boyfriend. Unlike other girls, I never confronted the girl. Not even a single text or email. I just stayed quite all throughout the whole ordeal until my boyfriend called it quits. A few months ago, the girl reached out to me and apologized for what she did. I told her to forget about the incident but I can't be chummies with her just like what she wants. I don't fight. I'm a bird. I take flight.

3. Recently, I felt bad about an "uncalled for" incident in the workplace. I might be over-reacting. I might be overly sensitive but I just really felt bad about it. I never knew how it is to have panic attacks until that fateful day. No one knows about this because like I always do, I stay mum all throughout the whole ordeal. I do not wish to talk about this in detail but maybe with this brief explanation, people might understand the effect of that small incident on me. I never had encountered anything like that maybe because I was a "sheltered" girl. Nonetheless, I take that my feelings are valid so like I always do in times like this, I choose flight than fight. I'm a bird. I take flight.


It's probably not the smartest thing to do especially if the consequences of taking flight are too high. Right now, although I disagree, I have to accept that even though I've given them the most sincere service that I can give them, I will leave with a bad reputation. It's unfair on my part because in my point of view, I was the one who was oppressed. But even with these high stakes, I still choose to take flight because I can't suck it up anymore. I wish that someday, people will remember my goodness instead of that one incident that caused me this much. Maybe someday, I will also find it in my heart to forgive but right now, I choose the easiest way out, to take flight.

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

work avoidance

I have to admit, work sucks these days and it's just too bad that a chock-full of my time is spent in there. So now, I concentrate on how to isolate myself from all these sucky stuff.

Of course, ipod never fails! I listen to happy tunes to lift my spirits even for just a teeny bit. Right now, I listen to I Am Sam OST and 50 1st Dates OST. Oldies but goodies! I know they are not as perky as what's in Nimmy's playlist but whenever I hear these songs, I remember the scenes from both movies and my heart becomes full of love again. :) I like movies or songs or books or what have you that doesn't necessarily have a "love" word but it screams LOVE LOVE LOVE!!!

If you can't understand what I mean check out:
Two of us - The Beatles
Strawberry Swing - Coldplay
Signal Fire - Snow Patrol
Satellite Heart - Anya Marina
Breathing - Lifehouse
and a lot more :)

Another thing that I also do to relieve myself from the sucky work stuff is I quietly surf on all things pretty! And by that, I meant pretty fashion stuff 'cause uhm, I'm a little bit into fashion. teehee! My favorite websites are:
http://jakandjil.com/blog/
http://thesartorialist.blogspot.com/
http://www.frugal-fashionistas.com/
http://www.whowhatwear.com/website/home.php
http://www.style.com/


Most of all, I go out the office as soon as I can. I feel blissful everytime I reach my room! I just feel so happy that I'm no longer at the office.

I know this can't go on forever. This is just a phase and I'll get out of this phase with grace as soon as I figured things out with the universe. :)

Friday, September 24, 2010

me and my crazy food cravings

It feels like forever since I last blogged. Oh well, forgive the busy girl. Haha!

Anyways, I have a story about my crazy food cravings lately. (I know, may last post was about food but I love food!) So, my friends have been making fun of me because of my cravings. Last night, I was craving for green mangoes and just now, I was craving for Pinakbet. You know that feeling when out of nowhere, it's like you can actually taste the food in your mouth? I even smell it right under my nose but it's not really there, not anywhere near too. It's really crazy and I've never been like this before. My friends tease me that maybe I'm preggers but I know I'm not because I don't have a sex life. As in zero. Nada.

Maybe, it's just hormones? For whatever reason it maybe, I hate these food cravings because I can't easily shake it off. It's a pain in the ass, you have no idea. I'm thinking, maybe someday when I'm preggers, my food cravings will be much more crazy! I pity the baby-daddy already. Haha!

Friday, September 17, 2010

what i do in the middle of the night

Touchdown, parent's house!!! Woohoo!!! I was so looking forward to yummy, home-cooked food care of my dad and mom and uncles and aunties ('cause I get to have round 2 of every meal from my relatives living in our compound). Haha!

It was already late when I came home. My brother and parents are already sleeping. My sister is out and will arrive early morning. I have a cousin who lives with my family and he's the only one awake. He was busy facebooking so I went to my brother's desktop and went farmvilling too. Haha! I guess my excitement is not making me feel sleepy yet.

After a few minutes, my cousin went to bed. I was bored farmvilling so I went to the kitchen and right in the middle of the dining table is ARIEL & FE's ROASTED CHICKEN!!! Woot woot! I'm so not hungry but I'm bored and I know the chicken taste good so I said to myself, what about a midnight snack, skinny b*tch? Haha!

So there I was, downing the sumptous roasted chicken with skin and all its vein-blocking fats. I was happy! No one will ever know what I do in the middle of the night. I was thinking that maybe the chicken was for my sister. I hope she won't notice that the chicken is gone. Hehe!

So, you know that part of the movie when the character is all happy without any sight of the villain but poof! the villian comes out from nowhere? This is this part. My dad woke up. So I tried my best to be silent. I didn't move. Heck, I didn't even breathe. But he went out of their room and there I was, looking like a construction worker so tired from the day's work, pigging out on the chicken using my hands, with one leg up in the chair. Hehe! Caught red-handed. If he ever thinks that I'm anorexic, for sure all those worries are gone.

So tomorrow, if someone looks for the chicken, my "unsuspicious" look won't do wonders for me anymore. My dad is an eye-witness. Or maybe he was sleep walking? Hehe!

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

resist

So, I was busy obsessed about this certain thing. I never went back to the gym, never did yoga again, never trained for long runs, never did anything since then. I even sleep with the lappy turned on on my bedside (I was not eco-friendly too). But that's how I am. Once I'm into something, I give it my all. Probably not healthy but I choose to hold on to whatever happiness there is available for me.

But now, I have to wait so I have to stop this obsession too. It's sad and difficult to stop myself. I'm so into it already but as they say, sh*t happens. On second thoughts, it's not really a sh*tty thing to happen. To buy a little more time and contemplate on things is not sh*tty.

One thing I learned throughout this whole ordeal though is to be secretive. I'm such a chatterbox so I'm actually surprised that for a few weeks, only two people knew about it (that includes moi). Ok, I will 'fess up. Last week, out of excitement, I told my two siblings too. Haha! And just yesterday I told two of my closest friends overseas because I just had to tell them ahead of time and I need their advice too. Haha! But still, me keeping a secret for almost a month is so monumental! And I still have to keep this secret from my parents, BFFs and other friends so, help me God. :)

I guess now, I will have more time to blog and not just post stuff just to have something to post. I have time. I am waiting. And I'm positive, this is definitely worth the wait. :) Wish me major major big time luck, you guys! :D

Monday, September 13, 2010

last friday

I was supposed to do "this" thing but I ended up doing another one. Haha! I stayed to watch a fashion show but I wasn't very pleased. Anyhow, it made me realize things about myself so I didn't actually waste my time.


Here are some of the things that stood up to me just because everything else was... blah (?) hehe!

This is "Mr Rockstar showed up to his wedding" look.

She's too petite to model frumpy wedding dresses but she gives out that "Beaming Bride" aura. :)

Other girls were wearing better gowns but her gorgeous face made her pull off this "old" gown and made her stand out.

I had fun going around and talking to people at this event. Now I get a lot of texts and emails and what have you. I'm so confussed with all these offers but I'm enjoying the ride. :)

i'm a proud tiger

I thought we bagged it but anyhow, top 3 ain't so bad. I know next year, we will reclaim the crown.



Sorry for the side comments. I'm too lazy to find a better video. Haha!


In my heart, we are still the champs. May mas a-astig pa ba sa GROWLING TIGERS?!?! Tell me. I dare you. Haha! I'm actually a nice person but I'm also passionate and I'm so damn proud to be a Thomasian. VIVA STO TOMAS!!!

Thursday, September 9, 2010

forced post

So, Nimmy was forcing me to make a post. Here goes.

Random stuff:
1. I was back-reading my blog the other day and I realized that my uninspired posts suck. Eeewww!
2. Today, I proved once again that I can't help myself but to eat dessert first. I was starving but I didn't touch the carbonarra and unconsciously waited for my chocolate cake and chug it down first. I ate everything up to the very last bit even if I was already so full, I could throw up. Haha!
3. I love having my nails done but I had my nails detoxed before my Boracay trip. I never had nail paint since then and my nails never looked this healthy. Yay!
4. My smallest bra is falling off. Darn this lazy-ass! Now I'm back to sub-100. I'm 97lbs again.Ugh!!!
5. I'm such a fickle-minded person. A control freak and a big fan of exagerrations.
6. I have a new blog. Bwahaha! Well, I am just one of the co-authors. Hey Nimmy, don't go looking for that blog, yeah? Yeah.
7. I choose to believe. I choose to have a happy heart. I choose to not over-analyze. Ok, I choose not to think para magka-boyfriend na ako. Bwahahaha!
8. I have a new addiction to ***. Haha! I won't tell!!! But don't worry, it's clean fun.
9. I want to buy a new red lipstick. I want to wear red lips everyday. Red lips even at the house, my room, my house's bathroom. Haha!
10. It's NY Fashion Week!!!! Weeeeeeee!!! Take me to NY pronto!!! Hay... if only I could be there...

That's it. That's all I can get from my brain. Sorry, my membrane isn't working these days... Maybe because I'm still 97lbs and "malnourished". Ugh.

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

make it real or take it all away

I guess I use my heart more than I should so I get heart-broken more than anyone else could. Even if I know that the stakes of being hurt are high, I still followed my heart and believed in that tiny little probability that maybe, this time it won't hurt. That maybe this time, I'll have my happy-ever-after. I should've believed in statistics but it's too late now. Here I am again, under depression with cuts and bruises and all. I feel like I'm in trauma but then again, I've been like this before. I tell myself to learn from it but I fail everytime. I suck at matters of the hearts and most probably, I'll be this way again next time and for the rest of my life (knock on wood). So now I build tall and thick walls once again but I know I'll let it collapse again... sooner than I wish and pray and should have. I'm such a dumb really when it comes to love. God, help me.

Monday, September 6, 2010

my dad is a lolotic

I couldn't think of a creative title for this lazy post so bear with me. Haha! I've been so lazy lately. See, I have no blogpost for the past four days... how lazy is that? Haha!

Anyhow, I'm blogging 'cause I need your help. It's my dad's birthday today. He's 60. He's practically a gramps except that he don't have an "apo" yet because his first born (ahem) is lazy. Haha! I wanted to give him  grandchild as a present. For sure, he'd love that but divine intervention doesn't happen in 2010 so....

I went to the mall the other day and yesterday to scout for a nice gift to give him. I found a nice leather belt, reversible and very luxurious-looking but, a belt??? Just a belt??? I also searched for a nice watch but Philip Stein is a bit pricey. It's not like I'm earning much and what I earn is even not enough for myself so I need to scratch that idea as well.

Any gift ideas that you can suggest to me? My dad is 60, tall and... well, that's all I know about him. Haha! We're not very close and we don't get to spend much time together so I can't describe him much. Haha! If you have anything in mind, please please tell me. I'm desperate. I'm going to see him this Friday so, I still have two days to buy a gift. Help!!!


My dad kinda looks like this guy on a good day. Haha! Hope this helps.

Before I forget, shout out to my dad!!! Happy 60th!!!  I love you!!! :)

Thursday, September 2, 2010

the waif is happy

Hysterically happy even. I have a lot of blessings today and it feels like everything is falling right into it's place. Some, I still couldn't share because Nimmy is following this blog. Haha! But I can share what I consider is my biggest blessing right about now. I'm still single, no boyfriend but I  have someone special now. YAY!!! And YES!!! He is not a straight acting gay man using me as a cover-up (you know my problem about being a gay magnet right? this time, this is not the case. I swear!!!) So, I'm so happy. I'm still alone for the most part but I have someone to share my stories with so it's not that lonely anymore. Anyway, I have to cut this short because... just because. (blame it on Nimmy haha!) but since I'm in the love mood, I'll post this song. Haha!



And to you my S.O. - well I expect you to read this. Haha! Thanks. Thanks for that fateful McDo meal. I knew it's going to be this way when I lied to my mom to go with you to McDo. And I felt that I'm special to you when you told me that you also lied to your mom. Haha! Sorry if it took me this long but hey! I'm ready now. :D

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

I'm just scared that we may fall through

Old school but I feel like this song was made for moi so this is blog-worthy. Every word seeps through me. This is exactly the kind of person that I am.




"I'm Like A Bird"

You're beautiful, that's for sure
You'll never ever fade
You're lovely but it's not for sure
That I won't ever change
And though my love is rare
Though my love is true

I'm like a bird, I'll only fly away
I don't know where my soul is, I don't know where my home is
(and baby all I need for you to know is)
I'm like a bird, I'll only fly away
I don't know where my soul is , I don't know where my home is
All I need for you to know is

Your faith in me brings me to tears
Even after all these years
And it pains me so much to tell
That you don't know me that well
And though my love is rare
Though my love is true

I'm like a bird, I'll only fly away
I don't know where my soul is, I don't know where my home is
(and baby all I need for you to know is)
I'm like a bird, I'll only fly away
I don't know where my soul is , I don't know where my home is
All I need for you to know is

It's not that I wanna say goodbye
It's just that every time you try to tell me that you love me
Each and every single day I know
I'm going to have to eventually give you away
And though my love is rare
And though my love is true
Hey I'm just scared
That we may fall through

I'm like a bird, I'll only fly away
I don't know where my soul is, I don't know where my home is
(and baby all I need for you to know is)
I'm like a bird, I'll only fly away
I don't know where my soul is , I don't know where my home is
All I need for you to know is

I'm like a bird, I'll only fly away
I don't know where my soul is, I don't know where my home is
(and baby all I need for you to know is)
I'm like a bird, I'll only fly away
I don't know where my soul is , I don't know where my home is
All I need for you to know is

I'm like a bird, I'll only fly away
I don't know where my soul is, I don't know where my home is
(and baby all I need for you to know is)
I'm like a bird, I'll only fly away
I don't know where my soul is , I don't know where my home is
All I need for you to know is

Sunday, August 29, 2010

single-blessedness

I'm happy and contented with being single. Happy and contented to the point that I am no longer looking and open to having a boyfriend. At one point, I am even blocking off everyone who shows interest in me. I'm just happy being single; to have all the time in the world to discover more of myself, to gain experiences on my own and to make myself stronger and better. What I don't talk about though are the drawbacks of being single but now, I'm gonna spill the beans.

First of all, its difficult to do everything on your own. You have to carry your own backpack, to change the lightbulb, to troubleshoot what's wrong with your electronic gadgets and basically do stuff that usually the boys love doing and the girls are so miserable at.

You have no one to share your stories, experiences, food, problems, angst, bills and so on and so forth. You might say that I have friends to share that with but, come on! You know what I mean... If not, then be single first so you'll get me.

You don't have a go-to guy for everything. To go with you to do errands, to watch a movie, to eat at a new resto, to go to a party and just to help you with anything. I remember, before, I would wake up and crave for the most unusual things (but I wasn't preggy, huh. I guess I was being a brat then) and all I needed to do was to wake-up my boyfriend and he'll figure it out for me. I miss that. I miss being spoiled.

Right now I guess, I am investing on stories to tell my grandchildren but then, would I still be alive by then? I'm 27 years old, no prospect husband, no boyfriend, no steady date, no date at all. Nada! And I felt guilty when I saw my dad came out of the airport building this morning. He's turning 60 that's why he came here for a vacation. He looks old, he is old and he wants a grandchild and as the first-born, I felt guilty. He doesn't know yet that me and my long-time boyfriend have broken off and honestly, I'm scared to tell him that his dreams of having grandchildren will be further delayed.

Lately, I'm feeling lonely. I go to sleep hugging my big hotdog pillow. I wake up hugging myself. Sometimes I cry out of loneliness and I realize, there's no one to rub my back and calm me down so, I cry even more. So yes, being single is not all that bright and shiny You will have episodes. It could get lonely.

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

cranky, much?

Whatever happened to my sweet image... Lately, I noticed that I easily get pissed off and I let it show. This is so not me. I'm the girl who couldn't care less, who just laughs it off and wears her poker face when mad. Maybe its the hormones? Maybe its the effect of being around cranky co-workers? I don't know. I don't know how I've become like this and how come no matter how I tell myself to take it easy, I just couldn't.

I'm pissed at Uge, the fashion victim supervisor at the office. I hate her "coño" antics. I hate her fashion choices. I hate her FACE!!! I don't talk to her. I don't work with her. I just see her walking around the floor, hear her talking over the phone, she's done nothing to moi but I'm pissed at her.

I'm pissed at a certain department in the office. I look after them and I easily gets pissed at the smallest, slightest things that are not even affecting their performance or my performance or whatever. But I still gets pissed off and I deal with my issue with them. I know they sense that I'm not in the best mood and somehow, I scared them off. I scared a whole department off. Are you scared of me yet? Haha!

I hate Facebook! I was supposed to harvest my berries in Farmville but I was prompted that my profile is not accessible due to sytem maintenance. What about my plants??? They will wither!!! I hate FB!!!

Then the Finance girl in the office pinged me. She wrote "glee ann... sorry to disturb you again" And I typed "what is it?" good thing I came to my senses and just forwarded her the report and replied "np" How cold was that? Haha!

Just right now, a co-worker called my name and I said "what?" without looking at her. Then she went to another one of my colleagues and did not bother me anymore. Haha!  I'm such a bad-ass these days. I know I need to go back to my sweet demeanor. I can't be a beeyotch. Not good for my image. Haha! Oh mon dieu, help moi...

Oh Mon Dieu!!!

Sure my name is Glee but I'm more of a Gossip Girl fan actually and I'm so excited about the upcoming season! If you haven't seen the promo yet, I got you covered, darling!




Don't you wish you can pull off a Blair, go to Paris to find love when your previous love didn't work out? It's like the writers have accessed my deepest yearning and made it Season 4. Argh!!! Can't wait!!!

Monday, August 23, 2010

spoiled brat

Me and one of my BFFs met up to eat.
me: Oh gosh. I always forget to replenish my wallet with money. I'll just order a drink. I don't have cash.
gurlfriend: Oh Glee, you're such a brat just like that.
me: Me, brat? I'd rather you say forgetful or irresponsible at the most brutal...
gurlfriend: You're a brat. You're so used to having everything done for you, you even forget you need money before you go out the house.
me: Whatever...

Moi and guy friend, Skype-ing.
guy friend: Hello, doll! What's going on?
me: I'm eating crap again just for the sake of eating.
guy friend: Haha! Look at you? I thought you are picky with what you eat. You used to always crave for good food. What happened?
me: oh well, I don't earn as much as I did before. That's what happened.
guy friend: And now you worry about money? That's news. Haha!
me: Times change, dude.
guy friend: Come on. What do you want to eat now?
me: I want kwek kwek!!!
guy friend: That's my girl! Come on, let's buy you a kwek kwek! :D

Yay for friends who tolerates me!!! :D

P.S. - I'm not a spoiled brat. I swear!!!

to be taken

Sometimes, I feel like I don't know how to be "taken" anymore. Sure, I have been in a relationship for almost 9 years but being single for almost a year now makes me forget about it. Paano na nga ba magka-boyfriend? Ma-try nga. Haha!

kaka-miss minsan
When I have a boyfriend, and I'll be comfortable enough to share my other boyfriend, Uno, my trusty lappy, first thing that I'll ask him to do is to play a certain level in Plant vs. Zombies and Zuma. I couldn't get past that level. I hate it!!! Argh!!! And I also hate how guys are naturally good at playin games!!! Badtrip!!!

child of nature

I am a child of nature. I do all sorts of crazy and stupid things just to be close to nature because it relieves my stress and always leaves me in awe.

I love swimming in the beach, rivers and lakes even if I'm not a confident swimmer.
I love climbing, trail-running and (semi) skyrunning even if I'm too weak to conquer the mountains.
I sit in a bus for 14 hours or even longer, travel by boat even if it scares me a lot, walk long miles with a heavy pack, buy plane tickets that are more than I can afford just to get close to nature.
I even go to UPD to jog which is far away from my place just to get my "nature-fix"
I hug trees even if that's the weirdest thing.

Bell Church - La Trinidad, Benguet
I love Mother Earth. Please help in protecting her. Y'all know how do it and y'all know that a lil thing goes a long way. Word! ;)

Sunday, August 22, 2010

tara, let's lamon!

Kamayan, Saisaki and Dads restaurants are celebrating their 33rd Anniversary and they are celebrating it with an Eat-All-You-Can Tempura experience for one day only, August 26, Thursday. Tara guys! Let's lamon. :)

ain't that a good deal?

Saturday, August 21, 2010

wild side part deux

Well, I got inked.


Wrong spelling nga lang. Bad trip. Haha!

Friday, August 20, 2010

recipe for complete sleep

I love net-a-porter even if I can't afford anything from them. I still check their site religiously even if everything costs an arm or two (well, you need to throw in your feet and one of your kidneys too) PRICEY!!!

And then, they have a story about getting a complete sleep. I'm an insomiac and it's still my birth month so I was interested. This might be that one lapse of judgement from my shopaholic rehab that I was waiting for. Nyahaha! So, I checked it and...

Hay naku... I still can't afford this.

But if you're well-off, go check and buy something at http://www.net-a-porter.com/. It's worth the splurge, I tell you. Ciao!

Boracay Birthday Day 3

Last installment.

6am - I'm a morning person :)
a Kuya insisted to take my pic. Also advised me to come back with a company. Haha!
I love how the sugar fine white sand feels on my skin. I'm goin to miss this to bits so, I'll be back in 2 months :)
my last Jonah's shake and vegetable omelette. I pray that they will open a branch here in Manila.
touchdown Manila after so many hassles along the way. I didn't miss you, Manila.

So there. I gained a few pounds and I am now suffering from a pimple break-out. I don't want to go out. I'm too lazy. I'm still in a vacay mood. I even still wear sundresses! I wish it's October already.

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Boracay Birthday Day 2

Photo-blog style again.

visit the church. I had so many blessings this year. :)


smart cat found a comfy place to lay - next door guy's short. lol

so they party and have fun more than I do, huh?


solo travellers needs a tripod. see? :)


lunch date: John Paul and Maui (local kids)

Met them the night before on the shore. Maui spotted me getting inked so we chat. He said he was hungry so I took him to lunch. His older brother spotted us so we invited him. :)

sweet treats

I was told that I need to stay away from sweets but it's my birthday!!! haha! This is at Chocolate Boy in Yumsing where the Mango outlet shop is. And I only bought 1 item at Mango. Promise :)


John Paul and Maui's birthday gift to moi :)


tropa ko :p


good times :D


kids pulling off a "Jhong Hilario" while another kid asks me for a kiss. bwahaha!


Lemoni cheesecake and Lemoni iced tea. I always have room for dessert.


firedancing is just so awesome and sexy. my jaw drop everytime I see them.


I was planning to sit in a bar cos I read about it in article about being single but I'm such a chicken. Haha!

Boracay Birthday Day 1

As you all know, I flew all the way to Boracay just to celebrate my birthday. A lot of my loved-ones were against it because it's stupid to spend your birthday alone. But actually for me, more than being happy, I was more concerned in proving to myself that I only need myself. Nothing more. I guess single girls who were dumped can relate somehow.

So there, I went to Boracay where I slept most of the time. I only swam for 30 minutes or even less I think and then I was either eating or sleeping for the most part.

I'll let the pictures tell you how Day One of my sole trip went.

CebuPac's cheap-ass but earth-friendly boarding pass. Astig!


travel buddies


alone even at my plane spot. the couple on the other side made me miss gran and gramps. RIP


self-portrait using a tripod. fail!


Boracay's isaw is one of a kind.


one of my favorite thing to do - people-watch


hanged-out with the local kids while another boy was carving my name on the sand


yup. I just woke up in time for the sunset. Told you, I was sleeping most of the time.



Chicken Mash Bush at True Food Indian Restaurant

I don't recommend this resto. I spent P600 for a meal that I didn't really enjoy and as far as I know, I love Indian food but this one was just lousy.


Day 2 and 3 next time. Now, I'll grab a bite. haha! :)

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

bday gift?

Check-in lady: Ma'am are you alone?
me: yes
Check-in lady: do you have connecting flight?
me: uh-uh
check-in lady: Ma'am due to safety precautions, we need to transfer your flight to Kalibo.
me: ok... (confused look)
Check-in lady: ma'am uhm, there's no wind here in Caticlan. short runway. no choice ma'am. (nosebleed na si atih. assuming kase na foreigner ako.)
Check-in lady: ma'am, no choice ma'am. we're very sorry.
me: (exhausted look... )
Check-in lady: Ma'am your flight would be at 1PM.
me: WHUT??? (sporting the most exhausted expression I could muster)
Check-in lady: I'm very sorry ma'am but there's no choice. I will give you free round trip ticket to anywhere in the Philippines ma'am, valid for 6 months. I'm very sorry ma'am.
me: (still looking exhausted but deep inside I'm thinking, "swerte na")
Check-in lady: ma'am he will be the one to assist you going to the Cebupac office. (lerking lerki na si atih sa sobrang nosebleed. gusto na nya akong madispatch. bwahaha!)

Kuyang assistant: Hi ma'am. I will assist you ma'am. This way ma'am. (ang daming ma'am nun ah)
me: (stayed mum. I'm thinking about work. I can imagine my boss' face. Lerki!!!)
Kuyang assistant: Ma'am are you a Filipina?
me: Yes kuya. Purong purong Filipina, walang halong bahid.
Kuyang assistant: ah... (nafeel nya yata na na-stress ako sa tanong nya. sorry naman. buong buhay ko na yata ako tinatanong ng ganyan. sensya na. tao lang. hehe!)

What about you? Do you see this as a jinx or otherwise? For me, it's both but I'd rather focus on the good side. Bahala na si universe sa boss ko. haha! :)

Monday, August 16, 2010

hello from Boracay

Guess who showed up to her flight to Boracay? Haha! Sorry for my outburst earlier. I realized it's unnecessary because I should've known that things will work its way. It always have. :)

Anyhow, I'm now here at Boracay, at the exact same resort and room I had last year. Not that I planned on this because I didn't make reservation prior to my leaving Manila. It just happened. I called about three resorts before this but all didn't make my cut so I decided to go back here at Blue Lily's. I'm actually relieved because at least I don't have to familiarize myself with a new room and new staff. :)

I'm having a blast! Eating like there's no tomorrow, listening to the music I like in the loudest volume, sleeping like it's the only thing to do and basically doing what I want without having to deal with anyone. I love sole trips. It's definitely a good idea to spend what you consider is the most important day of the year for yourself away from all the stresses and be closest to what you think is stress-free living.

Actually, I was a little bit stressed out earlier cos of my tight budget but my bestfriend helped me out but he also asked me to stop being a control freak this time. Like I said in my previous posts, I'm an OC so to just go with the flow is hard for moi. I am surviving though. Coming to Boracay without hotel reservation, no itinerary and plans on what to do next and stuff; it's hardwork but I'm enjoying every little bit of it. My friend is right afterall. Not overthinking things is way more enjoyable than having it all planned out and strictly sticking to it. I'm a convert. I'm a happy hippie now. And yes, it's my birthday today!

Happy birthday Glee!!! :)

Sunday, August 15, 2010

i got a feeling

I got a feeling that it's going to be a sad birthday for me. That no matter what I do, that no matter where I am, it's going to be sad.

I have planned to spend my birthday in Boracay just like last year when I really had fun. I was with my BFFs and I was still with my long-time boyfriend before. We rode the ATV, Zorb, paraw and went parasailing too. I ate the most delish food in fact, it's Jona's shake that inspired me to go back and spend my birthday there. I was excited with the idea that I will finally have a sole soul trip. No pressures. Just myself in a wonderful place with wonderful experiences. I even learned yoga cos I have dreamt about doing yoga at my suite's balcony. Fabulous times is what I have been daydreaming about for my upcoming birthday.

But lately, I feel like I've been so unlucky no matter how I strive to stay positive above all these bs. My first gift to myself, a Liz Claiborne wallet, was stolen together with my important IDs and all. Because of that, my budget for my birthday trip was slashed. I have to stay in a cheaper hotel and I can't buy a new swimsuit and beach-clothes. Instead of having a full waxing job, I have to settle with a full leg, brazilian, underarm and face waxing. And just now, I realized, my P1000 is gone. Sure, it's just P1000 but my budget is really tight now because portion of it was already stolen.

Now I'm having second thoughts. A part of me just want to lock myself in my room and cry my heart out. A part of me wants to push through with my plans only instead of having good times, i'm going to cry my heart out. I just want to be left alone.

EMO birthday. How exciting.

bikini-ready

Unless you're a boy or a Victoria's Secret Angel, you're probably obsessing about being bikini-ready days before you head-off to the beach. I'll be going to the beach tomorrow and I'm freakin' out!!! I love eating and I can't work out the past few days because I'm sickly so you can imagine how much worried I am. Oh well, I think I will never be bikini-ready no matter what I do anyways and I'll be alone on my vacay so I might as well take a deep breath and just accept my figure.

Anyways, I have far more important things to do before my flight (ooppssy daisy, that sounded like I'm going very far away like St. Regis Bora Bora. haha!) I have to print my e-ticket. Look for my passport cos my other IDs were stolen. Get waxed. Shop for travel essentials. Pack. Gahd, I love going on trips!!!

I may not be bikini-ready but I'll forever be travel-ready and beach-ready. I used to travel a lot and beaches are my favorite destination so I know what my travel essentials are by heart. Lookie at these pictures. :)


You can't go out the door without a first aid kit. I bought mine at Mercury Drugstore and it's a cheap-o compared to the usual first aid kit available at travel shops. I added medicine that I would usually take like Citirizine which I take for allergies, Advil, Alaxan FR and so on and so forth. Most of the time, my first aid kit remains untouched but I still consider it a must-have because you'll never know when emergency will happen. You have to be a girl or boy scout whenever you, a travel buddy or just anyone might need medical help. Place it in the most accessible place in your bag so it's easy to reach during emergencies.


Now on to a much more exciting part, kikay stuff! Aside from the usual shampoo and conditioner, you also need these. And whether you are a boy or a girl, you need all the stuff above. I swear!

Sunblock - We all know that sun rays are not good for the skin so you need to bring sunblock, the higher the SPF, the better. I use Hawaian Tropics Baby Faces SPF 50 for my face and a much stronger Hawaian Tropics Ozone SPF 70 for the rest of my body.

Lip Balm - Your lips also needs sun protection. Did you know that cancer that starts from the lips are faster to spread? So use that stick and pucker up! Mine is Blistex Lip Tone with SPF15. I love it because aside from being a sun protection, it has a touch of color that makes the lips a lot more sexy. It's cheap too!

Body oil - For that much-needed 'oomph' in your beach pictures, you need to slather your bod with oil. Haha! But more than that, oil keeps your skin moisturized while you're out in the sun. I use Nivea Sun Oil spray. Very convenient to use and it's been tried and tested.

After-sun moisturizer - You loose skin moisture after basking in the sun so to replenish, you need this. I use Nivea Cooling After Sun Spray which is also convenient to use and very effective.

Insect Repellent - You wouldn't know if you'll get viruses/diseases due to insect bites so you need to avoid that. I myself is allergic to ant bite (weird, ey?) so I never travel without Off Overtime. Its protection last for 8 hours so you don't need to put on it every now and then.

Hand Sanitizer - You're always out when on a vacay and God knows what kind of germs you get from playing outside so before you take that big bite, sanitize. I use Bath and Body Works hand sanitizer in pocket size. Convenient to carry around and smells yum-yum!

Gum - You can't bring your toothbrush and toothpaste while going around so to have a fresh breath after you binge, chew a gum. Mine's aptly named, Glee Gum from Healthy Options.

Body Spray - Sometimes, because of the different scents of all the sun protection and moisturizer that you put on, you don't smell good afterall. So after everything, I spray on Bath and Body Works Sensual Amber. It's a brand that I've been using for ages; cheap but the smell lasts long. As for the scent, I'm partial to sexy scents because I was never sexy so I put an effort to at least smell sexy. Haha!

Deodorodant - Well, this is just a reminder. I hate to say this but I always, always smell body odor whenever I travel. Please don't forget to use a deo. You go out, play, gay it up and sweat. No matter how baby smelling you are in the confines of your air conditioned homes and offices, it's a different story when you are out and don't have a choice but sweat. Mine is Rexona which was a freebie at Rexona run which I joined this month.

Ear plugs - You are on vacay and if you are sleep deprieved like I am, then invest on ear plugs and sleep your heart away. I love to see the sun rise so while everbody is partying at night, I hit the bed early and put on my ear plugs so I wouldn't hear the party animals. I know that these are hard to find but you can buy ear plugs at Rustan's. I bought mine from there, Hearros is the brand name. Mine's Sleep Pretty in Pink but they also have ones in neutral color.

I hope this helps in your next travel. Have fun! :)

Saturday, August 14, 2010

wild side part un

I love words. I love qoutes. And I'm going to play on words to express my wild side. I know you're excited because I'm not known as a wild girl. I don't drink, I don't smoke, I seldom party, I'm not promiscous, I have high moral standards for myself. In short, I'm boring. But I CAN be wild sometimes (only my person knows about my past wild moments. haha!) Lately, I feel the urge to go wild. Haha! Most of the time, I can sleep off whatever "bad" stuff that I'm going through but not this time. I'm going to get wild and nobody can stop me. Bwahaha!

glee ann ♥
ren - time and distance are not factors
life is a blast!
all you need is love
peace begins with a smile
crazy beautiful
where's your will to be weird?
beauty is only skin deep
Reality is wrong. Dreams are for real.
live everyday like it's your birthday

It'll all make sense on "wild side part deux". Now, sleep it off. Bonne nuit! :D

dine for a cause

I am a self-confessed OC so as early as now, I'm already thinking on where to eat dinner on August 17. Haha! Good for me, I chanced on a list of restaurants that does not only serve great tasting food but will also donate part of their revenue to 'Hands on Manila'. Ain't that great? I'll be eating orgasmic food for a great cause. Haha!

My choices:
Lemoni Café Stall 117 D’Mall, Phase 4, Boracay Island, Aklan / 035-288-6781
Indigo at Discovery Shores Boracay Station 1, Balabag, Boracay Island / 036-288-4500

Which of the two is better? Please help me out. :)
 
 
Now for those who want to pig out and help out, here's the complete list of restaurants that'll also participate in this charitable work.
 
22 Prime 22/F Discovery Suites, 25 ADB Avenue, Ortigas Center / 719-8888 loc 6822

Acqua Shangrila Mactan Island Resort and Spa, Lapu-lapu City, Cebu / 032-231-0288
Antonio’s Purok 138, Brgy Neogan, Tagaytay City/ 0918-899-2866
Astralis by Diamond Hotel Power Plant Mall, Rockwell / 899-7950
Aubergine 32nd street corner 5th Avenue, Bonifacio Global City/ 856-9888
Azuthai G/F Milky Way Bldg, 900 Arnaiz Avenue cor Paseo de Roxas, Makati / 817-6252

Banana Leaf The Terraces at Ayala Center, Cebu City • Greenbelt 3 • The Podium / 032-233-3321
Banana Leaf Asian Café The Block, SM City North Edsa, Quezon City / 442-0808
Barcino Wine & Tapas Bar G/F Greenbelt 2, Makati / 501-3250

The Café Mediterranean G/F Greenbelt 1, Makati / 751-9705
Carpaccio Ristorante Italiano 7431 Yakal Street, San Antonio Village, Makati / 843-7286
The Champagne Room Manila Hotel / 527-0011
Chef Laudico Bistro Filipino Net Square Bldg, 3rd Avenue, Bonifacio Global City, Taguig / 8560541
Chesa Bianca Swiss Restaurant 7431 Yakal Street, San Antonio Village, Makati / 815-1359
Cibo 2/F Greenbelt 5, Makati / 758-2426
Enchanté Restaurant & Bar by Chef Jessie 3/F Joy-Nostalg Center, 17 ADB Avenue, Ortigas Center / 470-4210
Escolta The Peninsula Manila / 887-2888 loc 6754-55
The Establishment – The Crystal Room Bonifacio Global City, Taguig / 844-6364

Fire Lake Grill Cliffhouse Tagaytay, Gen Aguinaldo Highway, Tagaytay / 046-483-2069
The Fireplace 5/F Hyatt Hotel and Casino Manila, 1588 Pedro Gil cor MH Del Pilar, Malate, Manila / 245-1234 loc 7266
Heat Edsa Shangri-La hotel, Mandaluyong City / 633-8888
I'm Angus Steakhouse 7431 Yakal Street, San Antonio Village, Makati / 843-7286
Inagiku Makati Shangri-la Hotel / 813-8888
Indigo at Discovery Shores Boracay Station 1, Balabag, Boracay Island / 036-288-4500

Je Suis Gourmand Net One, 3rd Avenue, Bonifacio Global City, Taguig / 815-8801
Josephine's Tagaytay KM 58, Gen Aguinaldo Highway, Maharlika West, Tagaytay / 046-413-1801
Kai Greenbelt 5, Makati / 757-5209

La Cocina de Tita Moning 315 San Rafael St, San Miguel, Manila / 734-2141
La Regalade French Bistro 820 Arnaiz Avenue, Makati City / 750-2104 to 05
Lemoni Café Stall 117 D’Mall, Phase 4, Boracay Island, Aklan / 035-288-6781
Lemuria The Winery, 5 Julieta Circle, Horseshoe Village, Quezon City / 724-5211
Li Li Hyatt Hotel and Casino Manila, 1588 Pedro Gil cor MH Del Pilar Street, Malate / 245-1234 loc 7251
Lusso Greenbelt 5, Makati / 756-2329

Mabuhay Palace Manila Hotel / 527-0011 loc 1345
Makati Shangri-La Lobby Lounge 813-8888
Masseto G/F 114 Valero Street, Salcedo Village, Makati / 338-0929

Ninyo Fusion Cuisine & Wine Lounge 66 Esteban Abada St, Loyola Heights, Quezon City / 426-0301

The Oakroom Joy-Nostalg Center, 17 ADB Avenue, Ortigas Center / 719-1160
O'Sonho Portuguese Fusion 1880 Bldg, New Eastwood Mall / 470-1768

Paparazzi Edsa Shangri-La Hotel, Mandaluyong / 633-8888
Pasto Fort Pointe Bldg, Bonifacio Global City, Taguig / 884-1592
People's Palace Greenbelt 3, Makati / 729-2888
Pepato Greenbelt 2, Makati / 757-263
Prince Albert Rotisserie Intercontinental Hotel Manila / 793-7000

Red Makati Shangri-la Hotel / 813-8888
Restaurant Verbena Discovery Country Suites, 300 Calamba Road, San Jose, Tagaytay / 046-413-4567

Sala LV Locsin Bldg, 6752 Ayala Avenue, Makati / 750-1555
Sala Bistro Greenbelt 3, Makati / 729-4888
Santi's Deli & Café KM 52 Buho, Silang, Cavite / 046-414-1694
Senju Edsa Shangri-La Hotel, Mandaluyong / 633-8888
Spices The Peninsula Manila / 887-2888 local 6754-55
Sugi Greenbelt 2 / 757-3678 or 79
Summer Palace Edsa Shangri-La Hotel, Mandaluyong / 633-8888

Tea of Spring Shangrila Mactan Island Resort and Spa, Lapu-lapu City, Cebu / 032-231-0288
Thai Patio Greenbelt 5, Makati / 729-0742
The Tivoli Mandarin Oriental Manila / 750-8888
Terry's Bistro Karivin Plaza, 2316 Chino Roces Ave Ext, Makati / 844-1816
Tosca Dusit Thani Hotel, Makati / 867-3333 loc 3310
Trio Fort Pointe Bldg, Bonifacio Global City, Taguig / 884-1601

Umu Dusit Thani Hotel, Makati / 867-3333 loc 3343

Yurakuen Diamond Hotel Philippines, Roxas Blvd cor Dr. J Quintos Street, Manila / 528-3000 loc 1127

Zao Vietnamese Restaurant Serendra Piazza, Bonifacio Global City, Taguig / 856-2819
Zong Westgate Center, Filinvest Corporate City, Alabang / 771-1428
Zucchini's 20 Scout Tuazon cor Scout Castor, Quezon City / 376-5896


For more information, please visit: http://www.luxedining.com/philippines/dining-for-a-cause

Now, time to binge!!! :D


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Friday, August 13, 2010

good morning earthlings!

This video makes me want to go out! Wish my flight for my sole soul vacay is today. I'm so excited!



Make It Mine - Jason Mraz

Thursday, August 12, 2010

boys boys boys

Convos with some of the boys I met.

With a 16-year old.
him: Ate Glee, you're so cute. I really like you. I love you!
me: hehe! Don't worry, you'll get over it.

With a 21-year old.
him: I just graduated and passed the boards. I'm officially a licensed engineer. I have a lot of plans. I know I'll be great. Let's hang out.
me: Good for you! I'll give you my support 100%, lil bro. ;)

With a 25-year old.
him: My girlfriend and I are on the rocks right now. I know we'll break up soon. And I really like you. And I never liked anyone this much before. Please have a meal with me.
me: hehe! I have plans with my gay sissies.
him: Come on. My girlfriend will come back from vacation the next day. Please let's spend time together tomorrow.
me: I'm insulted. Did you really think I'd fall for that? Sorry but I'm not that naive and stupid so please don't push it any further. I already said no so many times.

With a 28-year old.
him: You know, everybody likes me. I look good. I'm nice. I'm smart. I have a very bright future ahead of me. Yada. Yada. Yada.
me: Ok, friend. Good for you! Yay!

With a 32-year old.
him: I have a business and I drive this really nice car. Look at my tattoos, aren't they cool?
me: Yeah. They're cool and scary.

With another 32-year old
him: You're so fine! You're so sexy. Come on, let's drink.
me: You have no idea who I am then. Go back to your fiance!!!

With a 72-year old.
him: I'm a retired engineer. I can treat you to this resto and take you to this nice resort out of town. I have a lady friend before who was just as young as you are. She said she enjoys my company a lot. What about you?
me: hehe! Got to go sir! Bye!

With a 26-year old.
him: uhm...
me: hey! how are you?
him: I miss you. Sorry for what I did. I want you back.
me: *blush*

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

i ask you




Now, it's my turn ;)

stop

Do you know how to stop? I do and yesterday, I stopped.

I've been working all week for a couple of months already. I also go to the gym and run in the sports complex or in the roads at least 3 times a week. I also do yoga twice a week. At home, I don't have a helper; I cook and clean. I also try to squeeze as much time as I can to spend time with friends. When I get a free time, I watch the TiVo, check FB and chat with friends. My average sleep is 4 hours. Most of the time, because I've got no time at all, I just eat granola bars while on transit. Gahd, just enumerating my activities makes me tired already.

I thought, I was healthy. I was eating healthy stuff. Froyo is my favorite snack, my usual breakfast is cereals or oatmeal and milk, my usual lunch and dinner is boiled potato marbles with tuna and cheese or salad or fruit medley. I don't consume empty calories and everything that is "unhealthy". I'm the usual health-buff you see in the grocery who reads the nutrition facts and believe me, I do know how to read the thing. I also exercise on a regular basis. I take multivitamins daily. I had my flu shot. I thought all these would make me sickness-proof but I was wrong.

Since time in memorial, I've been underweight and I know that's unhealthy but I really never felt that I was malnourished. I don't feel that being underweight is a problem because I feel as healthy and strong as Manny Pacquiao (whatever that feels like. haha!) Maybe, I'm just naturally 'light', maybe there are really people who weighs light but are still as healthy as can be.

Last week, I got an email from our office's clinic saying that based on the Annual Physical Exam, I am sick and I need to see the doctor asap. So I channeled Superman and went to the doctor and discussed about my so-called sickness. I decided, I'll take the prescription but the "sickness" is nothing that can stop me.

Lately, I've been feeling really tired but I found out that only when I slow down did I feel tired. So, I always push myself to be on-the-go so I can do everything in my plate. Then, I realized that I become tired more and more over a short period of time but I still pushed through. I told myself, IT's only in my mind. I don't think there's anything wrong in pushing yourself to accomplish things but I also think that one has to know when to stop.

Yesterday, I was feeling really tired. I haven't worked out that much in the gym. In fact, I felt like I haven't worked out at all. I was always excited to go to the yoga class but although I was in the class very early, I opted to just watch them. I was uninspired. I was really really tired. I went around the mall but I still couldn't get myself to feel excited. I ate sweets which I've been staying away from since the nutritionist says so but I still didn't feel "happy". So I went home. Hit the bed.

I woke up two hours before work and prep. In the shower, I already felt that my knees are getting weak and my whole body is very heavy. I don't know if it was lack of potassium of just plain over-fatigue. I was still able to get myself to ride the jeep but I decided to go home instead. I contacted my boss to tell him that I couldn't go to work. Then, I slept.

So yes, I know how to stop. I just don't know when. Hopefully next time, it's not too late.