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Do you still know me? Sorry for the long lag but saying "I've been busy" would be an understatement, honestly.

So work has been taking much of my time that I haven't gotten any haircut since I left my previous job. Bwahaha! My eyebrows are no longer "tamed" it's like a wild forest actually but whenever there are cancelled meetings and tasks can wait for an hour, I grab the chance to run to the nearby mall, in a facial center, and have my eyebrows and underarms threaded. My sched is that busy.

My personal life also eats up my time. I have a boyfriend now but it's an LDR kinda thing so most of my time are spent in front of my laptop, skyping with him. He even bought me an iphone4 so we can "viber" and "facetime" which is much more cheaper than IDD. haha! Overall though, I'm so happy and excited for things to unfold between us. Most of the time, I wish he was here. Especially when I'm put up to make a decision for both of us or in times of confusion or whenever I feel like giving up because the stakes are too high. Everytime I hit the bed to sleep, I miss him. I wish I was sharing my bed with him, sleeping beside him, waking up next to him.

LDRs are really challenging but it's possible to make it work. I always hear negative comments from people about us being a hundred miles away but honestly, I'm much more closer to him than my room mate or anyone so to speak. We talk in a way that nobody else can talk to him or me. We're bestfriends and we feel whatever each of us feels even if we are not together physically just because we are completely honest with each other and we take the time out of our busy schedules to communicate.

Then again, LDRs are hard so, we are taking steps to end our long distance relationship and be together already.

resist

So, I was busy obsessed about this certain thing. I never went back to the gym, never did yoga again, never trained for long runs, never did anything since then. I even sleep with the lappy turned on on my bedside (I was not eco-friendly too). But that's how I am. Once I'm into something, I give it my all. Probably not healthy but I choose to hold on to whatever happiness there is available for me.

But now, I have to wait so I have to stop this obsession too. It's sad and difficult to stop myself. I'm so into it already but as they say, sh*t happens. On second thoughts, it's not really a sh*tty thing to happen. To buy a little more time and contemplate on things is not sh*tty.

One thing I learned throughout this whole ordeal though is to be secretive. I'm such a chatterbox so I'm actually surprised that for a few weeks, only two people knew about it (that includes moi). Ok, I will 'fess up. Last week, out of excitement, I told my two siblings too. Haha! And just yesterday I told two of my closest friends overseas because I just had to tell them ahead of time and I need their advice too. Haha! But still, me keeping a secret for almost a month is so monumental! And I still have to keep this secret from my parents, BFFs and other friends so, help me God. :)

I guess now, I will have more time to blog and not just post stuff just to have something to post. I have time. I am waiting. And I'm positive, this is definitely worth the wait. :) Wish me major major big time luck, you guys! :D