hello hello

Do you still know me? Sorry for the long lag but saying "I've been busy" would be an understatement, honestly.

So work has been taking much of my time that I haven't gotten any haircut since I left my previous job. Bwahaha! My eyebrows are no longer "tamed" it's like a wild forest actually but whenever there are cancelled meetings and tasks can wait for an hour, I grab the chance to run to the nearby mall, in a facial center, and have my eyebrows and underarms threaded. My sched is that busy.

My personal life also eats up my time. I have a boyfriend now but it's an LDR kinda thing so most of my time are spent in front of my laptop, skyping with him. He even bought me an iphone4 so we can "viber" and "facetime" which is much more cheaper than IDD. haha! Overall though, I'm so happy and excited for things to unfold between us. Most of the time, I wish he was here. Especially when I'm put up to make a decision for both of us or in times of confusion or whenever I feel like giving up because the stakes are too high. Everytime I hit the bed to sleep, I miss him. I wish I was sharing my bed with him, sleeping beside him, waking up next to him.

LDRs are really challenging but it's possible to make it work. I always hear negative comments from people about us being a hundred miles away but honestly, I'm much more closer to him than my room mate or anyone so to speak. We talk in a way that nobody else can talk to him or me. We're bestfriends and we feel whatever each of us feels even if we are not together physically just because we are completely honest with each other and we take the time out of our busy schedules to communicate.

Then again, LDRs are hard so, we are taking steps to end our long distance relationship and be together already.

single-blessedness

I'm happy and contented with being single. Happy and contented to the point that I am no longer looking and open to having a boyfriend. At one point, I am even blocking off everyone who shows interest in me. I'm just happy being single; to have all the time in the world to discover more of myself, to gain experiences on my own and to make myself stronger and better. What I don't talk about though are the drawbacks of being single but now, I'm gonna spill the beans.

First of all, its difficult to do everything on your own. You have to carry your own backpack, to change the lightbulb, to troubleshoot what's wrong with your electronic gadgets and basically do stuff that usually the boys love doing and the girls are so miserable at.

You have no one to share your stories, experiences, food, problems, angst, bills and so on and so forth. You might say that I have friends to share that with but, come on! You know what I mean... If not, then be single first so you'll get me.

You don't have a go-to guy for everything. To go with you to do errands, to watch a movie, to eat at a new resto, to go to a party and just to help you with anything. I remember, before, I would wake up and crave for the most unusual things (but I wasn't preggy, huh. I guess I was being a brat then) and all I needed to do was to wake-up my boyfriend and he'll figure it out for me. I miss that. I miss being spoiled.

Right now I guess, I am investing on stories to tell my grandchildren but then, would I still be alive by then? I'm 27 years old, no prospect husband, no boyfriend, no steady date, no date at all. Nada! And I felt guilty when I saw my dad came out of the airport building this morning. He's turning 60 that's why he came here for a vacation. He looks old, he is old and he wants a grandchild and as the first-born, I felt guilty. He doesn't know yet that me and my long-time boyfriend have broken off and honestly, I'm scared to tell him that his dreams of having grandchildren will be further delayed.

Lately, I'm feeling lonely. I go to sleep hugging my big hotdog pillow. I wake up hugging myself. Sometimes I cry out of loneliness and I realize, there's no one to rub my back and calm me down so, I cry even more. So yes, being single is not all that bright and shiny You will have episodes. It could get lonely.

to be taken

Sometimes, I feel like I don't know how to be "taken" anymore. Sure, I have been in a relationship for almost 9 years but being single for almost a year now makes me forget about it. Paano na nga ba magka-boyfriend? Ma-try nga. Haha!

kaka-miss minsan

When I have a boyfriend, and I'll be comfortable enough to share my other boyfriend, Uno, my trusty lappy, first thing that I'll ask him to do is to play a certain level in Plant vs. Zombies and Zuma. I couldn't get past that level. I hate it!!! Argh!!! And I also hate how guys are naturally good at playin games!!! Badtrip!!!