hello hello

Do you still know me? Sorry for the long lag but saying "I've been busy" would be an understatement, honestly.

So work has been taking much of my time that I haven't gotten any haircut since I left my previous job. Bwahaha! My eyebrows are no longer "tamed" it's like a wild forest actually but whenever there are cancelled meetings and tasks can wait for an hour, I grab the chance to run to the nearby mall, in a facial center, and have my eyebrows and underarms threaded. My sched is that busy.

My personal life also eats up my time. I have a boyfriend now but it's an LDR kinda thing so most of my time are spent in front of my laptop, skyping with him. He even bought me an iphone4 so we can "viber" and "facetime" which is much more cheaper than IDD. haha! Overall though, I'm so happy and excited for things to unfold between us. Most of the time, I wish he was here. Especially when I'm put up to make a decision for both of us or in times of confusion or whenever I feel like giving up because the stakes are too high. Everytime I hit the bed to sleep, I miss him. I wish I was sharing my bed with him, sleeping beside him, waking up next to him.

LDRs are really challenging but it's possible to make it work. I always hear negative comments from people about us being a hundred miles away but honestly, I'm much more closer to him than my room mate or anyone so to speak. We talk in a way that nobody else can talk to him or me. We're bestfriends and we feel whatever each of us feels even if we are not together physically just because we are completely honest with each other and we take the time out of our busy schedules to communicate.

Then again, LDRs are hard so, we are taking steps to end our long distance relationship and be together already.

a prayer

Based on true to life story which happened minutes ago...

Him: Diyos ko po!
Tulungan nyo ko!
Mahal ko tong babaeng to
Pero ayaw nya maniwala!

Me: wrong sent po. ipadala mo yan sa langit. hehe!

Him: oo nga pala.
ayan, na-send na.

make it real or take it all away

I guess I use my heart more than I should so I get heart-broken more than anyone else could. Even if I know that the stakes of being hurt are high, I still followed my heart and believed in that tiny little probability that maybe, this time it won't hurt. That maybe this time, I'll have my happy-ever-after. I should've believed in statistics but it's too late now. Here I am again, under depression with cuts and bruises and all. I feel like I'm in trauma but then again, I've been like this before. I tell myself to learn from it but I fail everytime. I suck at matters of the hearts and most probably, I'll be this way again next time and for the rest of my life (knock on wood). So now I build tall and thick walls once again but I know I'll let it collapse again... sooner than I wish and pray and should have. I'm such a dumb really when it comes to love. God, help me.

the waif is happy

Hysterically happy even. I have a lot of blessings today and it feels like everything is falling right into it's place. Some, I still couldn't share because Nimmy is following this blog. Haha! But I can share what I consider is my biggest blessing right about now. I'm still single, no boyfriend but I  have someone special now. YAY!!! And YES!!! He is not a straight acting gay man using me as a cover-up (you know my problem about being a gay magnet right? this time, this is not the case. I swear!!!) So, I'm so happy. I'm still alone for the most part but I have someone to share my stories with so it's not that lonely anymore. Anyway, I have to cut this short because... just because. (blame it on Nimmy haha!) but since I'm in the love mood, I'll post this song. Haha!



And to you my S.O. - well I expect you to read this. Haha! Thanks. Thanks for that fateful McDo meal. I knew it's going to be this way when I lied to my mom to go with you to McDo. And I felt that I'm special to you when you told me that you also lied to your mom. Haha! Sorry if it took me this long but hey! I'm ready now. :D

to be taken

Sometimes, I feel like I don't know how to be "taken" anymore. Sure, I have been in a relationship for almost 9 years but being single for almost a year now makes me forget about it. Paano na nga ba magka-boyfriend? Ma-try nga. Haha!

kaka-miss minsan

When I have a boyfriend, and I'll be comfortable enough to share my other boyfriend, Uno, my trusty lappy, first thing that I'll ask him to do is to play a certain level in Plant vs. Zombies and Zuma. I couldn't get past that level. I hate it!!! Argh!!! And I also hate how guys are naturally good at playin games!!! Badtrip!!!

boys boys boys

Convos with some of the boys I met.

With a 16-year old.
him: Ate Glee, you're so cute. I really like you. I love you!
me: hehe! Don't worry, you'll get over it.

With a 21-year old.
him: I just graduated and passed the boards. I'm officially a licensed engineer. I have a lot of plans. I know I'll be great. Let's hang out.
me: Good for you! I'll give you my support 100%, lil bro. ;)

With a 25-year old.
him: My girlfriend and I are on the rocks right now. I know we'll break up soon. And I really like you. And I never liked anyone this much before. Please have a meal with me.
me: hehe! I have plans with my gay sissies.
him: Come on. My girlfriend will come back from vacation the next day. Please let's spend time together tomorrow.
me: I'm insulted. Did you really think I'd fall for that? Sorry but I'm not that naive and stupid so please don't push it any further. I already said no so many times.

With a 28-year old.
him: You know, everybody likes me. I look good. I'm nice. I'm smart. I have a very bright future ahead of me. Yada. Yada. Yada.
me: Ok, friend. Good for you! Yay!

With a 32-year old.
him: I have a business and I drive this really nice car. Look at my tattoos, aren't they cool?
me: Yeah. They're cool and scary.

With another 32-year old
him: You're so fine! You're so sexy. Come on, let's drink.
me: You have no idea who I am then. Go back to your fiance!!!

With a 72-year old.
him: I'm a retired engineer. I can treat you to this resto and take you to this nice resort out of town. I have a lady friend before who was just as young as you are. She said she enjoys my company a lot. What about you?
me: hehe! Got to go sir! Bye!

With a 26-year old.
him: uhm...
me: hey! how are you?
him: I miss you. Sorry for what I did. I want you back.
me: *blush*