resist

So, I was busy obsessed about this certain thing. I never went back to the gym, never did yoga again, never trained for long runs, never did anything since then. I even sleep with the lappy turned on on my bedside (I was not eco-friendly too). But that's how I am. Once I'm into something, I give it my all. Probably not healthy but I choose to hold on to whatever happiness there is available for me.

But now, I have to wait so I have to stop this obsession too. It's sad and difficult to stop myself. I'm so into it already but as they say, sh*t happens. On second thoughts, it's not really a sh*tty thing to happen. To buy a little more time and contemplate on things is not sh*tty.

One thing I learned throughout this whole ordeal though is to be secretive. I'm such a chatterbox so I'm actually surprised that for a few weeks, only two people knew about it (that includes moi). Ok, I will 'fess up. Last week, out of excitement, I told my two siblings too. Haha! And just yesterday I told two of my closest friends overseas because I just had to tell them ahead of time and I need their advice too. Haha! But still, me keeping a secret for almost a month is so monumental! And I still have to keep this secret from my parents, BFFs and other friends so, help me God. :)

I guess now, I will have more time to blog and not just post stuff just to have something to post. I have time. I am waiting. And I'm positive, this is definitely worth the wait. :) Wish me major major big time luck, you guys! :D

last friday

I was supposed to do "this" thing but I ended up doing another one. Haha! I stayed to watch a fashion show but I wasn't very pleased. Anyhow, it made me realize things about myself so I didn't actually waste my time.


Here are some of the things that stood up to me just because everything else was... blah (?) hehe!

This is "Mr Rockstar showed up to his wedding" look.

She's too petite to model frumpy wedding dresses but she gives out that "Beaming Bride" aura. :)

Other girls were wearing better gowns but her gorgeous face made her pull off this "old" gown and made her stand out.

I had fun going around and talking to people at this event. Now I get a lot of texts and emails and what have you. I'm so confussed with all these offers but I'm enjoying the ride. :)

i'm a proud tiger

I thought we bagged it but anyhow, top 3 ain't so bad. I know next year, we will reclaim the crown.



Sorry for the side comments. I'm too lazy to find a better video. Haha!


In my heart, we are still the champs. May mas a-astig pa ba sa GROWLING TIGERS?!?! Tell me. I dare you. Haha! I'm actually a nice person but I'm also passionate and I'm so damn proud to be a Thomasian. VIVA STO TOMAS!!!

forced post

So, Nimmy was forcing me to make a post. Here goes.

Random stuff:
1. I was back-reading my blog the other day and I realized that my uninspired posts suck. Eeewww!
2. Today, I proved once again that I can't help myself but to eat dessert first. I was starving but I didn't touch the carbonarra and unconsciously waited for my chocolate cake and chug it down first. I ate everything up to the very last bit even if I was already so full, I could throw up. Haha!
3. I love having my nails done but I had my nails detoxed before my Boracay trip. I never had nail paint since then and my nails never looked this healthy. Yay!
4. My smallest bra is falling off. Darn this lazy-ass! Now I'm back to sub-100. I'm 97lbs again.Ugh!!!
5. I'm such a fickle-minded person. A control freak and a big fan of exagerrations.
6. I have a new blog. Bwahaha! Well, I am just one of the co-authors. Hey Nimmy, don't go looking for that blog, yeah? Yeah.
7. I choose to believe. I choose to have a happy heart. I choose to not over-analyze. Ok, I choose not to think para magka-boyfriend na ako. Bwahahaha!
8. I have a new addiction to ***. Haha! I won't tell!!! But don't worry, it's clean fun.
9. I want to buy a new red lipstick. I want to wear red lips everyday. Red lips even at the house, my room, my house's bathroom. Haha!
10. It's NY Fashion Week!!!! Weeeeeeee!!! Take me to NY pronto!!! Hay... if only I could be there...

That's it. That's all I can get from my brain. Sorry, my membrane isn't working these days... Maybe because I'm still 97lbs and "malnourished". Ugh.

make it real or take it all away

I guess I use my heart more than I should so I get heart-broken more than anyone else could. Even if I know that the stakes of being hurt are high, I still followed my heart and believed in that tiny little probability that maybe, this time it won't hurt. That maybe this time, I'll have my happy-ever-after. I should've believed in statistics but it's too late now. Here I am again, under depression with cuts and bruises and all. I feel like I'm in trauma but then again, I've been like this before. I tell myself to learn from it but I fail everytime. I suck at matters of the hearts and most probably, I'll be this way again next time and for the rest of my life (knock on wood). So now I build tall and thick walls once again but I know I'll let it collapse again... sooner than I wish and pray and should have. I'm such a dumb really when it comes to love. God, help me.

my dad is a lolotic

I couldn't think of a creative title for this lazy post so bear with me. Haha! I've been so lazy lately. See, I have no blogpost for the past four days... how lazy is that? Haha!

Anyhow, I'm blogging 'cause I need your help. It's my dad's birthday today. He's 60. He's practically a gramps except that he don't have an "apo" yet because his first born (ahem) is lazy. Haha! I wanted to give him  grandchild as a present. For sure, he'd love that but divine intervention doesn't happen in 2010 so....

I went to the mall the other day and yesterday to scout for a nice gift to give him. I found a nice leather belt, reversible and very luxurious-looking but, a belt??? Just a belt??? I also searched for a nice watch but Philip Stein is a bit pricey. It's not like I'm earning much and what I earn is even not enough for myself so I need to scratch that idea as well.

Any gift ideas that you can suggest to me? My dad is 60, tall and... well, that's all I know about him. Haha! We're not very close and we don't get to spend much time together so I can't describe him much. Haha! If you have anything in mind, please please tell me. I'm desperate. I'm going to see him this Friday so, I still have two days to buy a gift. Help!!!

My dad kinda looks like this guy on a good day. Haha! Hope this helps.

Before I forget, shout out to my dad!!! Happy 60th!!!  I love you!!! :)

the waif is happy

Hysterically happy even. I have a lot of blessings today and it feels like everything is falling right into it's place. Some, I still couldn't share because Nimmy is following this blog. Haha! But I can share what I consider is my biggest blessing right about now. I'm still single, no boyfriend but I  have someone special now. YAY!!! And YES!!! He is not a straight acting gay man using me as a cover-up (you know my problem about being a gay magnet right? this time, this is not the case. I swear!!!) So, I'm so happy. I'm still alone for the most part but I have someone to share my stories with so it's not that lonely anymore. Anyway, I have to cut this short because... just because. (blame it on Nimmy haha!) but since I'm in the love mood, I'll post this song. Haha!



And to you my S.O. - well I expect you to read this. Haha! Thanks. Thanks for that fateful McDo meal. I knew it's going to be this way when I lied to my mom to go with you to McDo. And I felt that I'm special to you when you told me that you also lied to your mom. Haha! Sorry if it took me this long but hey! I'm ready now. :D